::my father::

his lonely back seemed so unfamiliar

i just watched him as he walked along

and tears just formed so i just cried

because i hated myself for not knowing all this time

because he always pretended to be calm and smiled

because he always pretended to be strong in front of me

i didn't even think of it

i thought i would never see it

so i didn't know about his lonely back

i didn't know back then

i was too young

you must been lonelier than anyone else 

but i didn't approach you

now i finally know i hope it's not too late

these are the words i wanted to say much

i love you forever

after watching him for a long time

i ran to him and just hugged him

i wanted to just cry

i wanted to cry in his arms

because my gratitude toward you was so sad

you pretend to feel better after letting out a deep sigh

i can see your visible tears

you don't cry over your scarred heart with the painful wounds

i made those scars but why do i keep blaming you?

and your eyes showed you were tired


but you hid it such a liar

now i will embrace you

you can lean on me

you are forever high sky to me

your beaten hands

your wrinkled eyes

your lonely back - i'm not used to any of those

maybe that's why i was like that

that's why i hurt you

even your turned back seems like baggage that i left behind

i haven't done anything for you

i haven't given anything to you but

these are the word i wanted to say so much

i love you forever 

my father .....